You’ve been there for me since I was born. I practically lived in the same apartment complex with you until after kindergarten.
I remember everyday you would take care of me and my many cousins. I remember you would cook for me every morning and afternoon before my mom would pick me up. You would give me this type of gum (they don’t make them anymore..for all I know) every time I did something good. You always gave me strength after I’ve fallen so many times on my little two feet. You taught me math when I was five and punished me if I didn’t know my multiplication tables. I really miss you. Thinking about you at this time really troubles me. I know I haven’t called a lot lately…I seem to forgot about all the things you taught me. I am very grateful to you.
Now, my mom told me to call you because you’ve fallen ill. worst than before. I know you have diabetes since I was a little kid. I was the one to always remind you to drink your medicine after every meal. I never thought that by this time it would get serious. I always thought that you’ll be with me always.
Today it hit me. I called you and you told me you don’t have much longer. I told you to stop talking non-sense and that everything will be better. I died a little inside today. Please, please don’t go. Not yet…not until I see you again. I hate it so much that you’re in Minnesota and I’m stuck here. I hate it. I miss you so much and the fact that you’re telling me you’re leaving soon isn’t making me feel better.
I should’ve been a better grand-daughter to you. I should’ve called you more often and talk to you. I’m sorry I’ve been ignorant to see that you’re not going to live that long. I’ve always thought of you as someone who will always be there for me & you have…it was me that was stupid to see that I wasn’t there for you when you needed me. I want you to know that I love you so much. and I am also grateful to have you as a grandfather, super hero, teacher, and a supporter. So please…stay a little longer…5 more years, 10 if possible. You promised to be at my wedding and also be there to see my kids grow up. Please…don’t leave me. Not just yet…∞ June 24th, 2012 at 1:45 am