Mims

Since i skipped like three days? I’m going to post the three days up.

DAY SIX: Favorite superhero and why.

This is to all the police officers, doctors, lawyers, regular citizens, and my parents. I believe that everyone of us inside is a superhero. Deep down in there we’ve helped others, confort others, console, and also advise others as well. We do our best to help the ones we love and sometimes occasionally to strangers we don’t even know.

The saying “what comes around, goes around.” and i want to thank every one out there for making the world a better place to live in. We need more people to act sincere and generous with a helping hand once in awhile. & that is the greatest superhero of all; the ones inside us that can help and make a difference.

A habit you wish you didn’t have.

Hmm, I wish i wasn’t easily overly emotional all the time. When i’m sad - i cry, when i’m mad - i cry, when i’m happy - i cry. I cry for all sorts of reasons. Ehh, thats bad.

Its unhealthy but i’m going to try to be strong. wish me luck?

I didn’t know why i was so bored earlier this afternoon that i went back on myspace and look through my comments.

I went backwards and started reading only the long posts and skimming through all the others. I felt horrible and sad. I don’t know why i did. There were so many people i used to talk to and now don’t even talk to anymore. It doesn’t upset me that much but the reason that they’re not just friends but more. They were my ex’s that i miss. That makes no sense. Well i miss their company and i miss each and every single one of them’s personality. It really makes no sense right now.

With tam i have more than i can ever ask for. I have no idea why i’m sad. I don’t think i’m sad. I’m just emotionless right now. I guess they’re called “ex for a reason” and that is what tam tells me every day. Hmmm, i’m okay now i guess.

Starting from today, I won’t be sad ever again because of them. Tam is all i ever need. Starting from today…i’m going to erase every single ex i ever had. Like they were never my ex but normal human beings. Although i still have one or two i still befriend…i won’t change that fact. I can be friends with them if i want…but i’m not going to start it.

That makes no sense. aaaah, scattered brain right now. “Whatever happens, happens.” My life with sadness ends here, and happiness with tam is where i’m going to be.

Day Three: A picture of you and your friends.

I just realized that i had so many friends of different circles that i don’t really have a group picture for every single one of them but singles with me and them. =( I think i need new pictures. :((

This post is dedicated to Justine. She went back to france on yesterday, and i thought that this post should be about her. I’m going to miss her like craaazy. :( hopefully i see her again one day.

Day two: The meaning behind your tumblr name.

x3Mims.

x3 - a cute symbol or smiley or whatever you want to see it as.
and ‘Mims’ is a nickname given to me originally by Calvin Huynh lol,
and then everyone started calling Mims, so i took it in as a nicknamee

:D

DAY ONE: a recent picture of yourself and fifteen interesting facts.

15 interesting facts:

1. That picture above was taken yesterday at my first job’s fitting room, PacSun.
2. I wasn’t shopping there, my boyfriend tam was & i brought him a pair of jeans. :)
3. I have a crappy phone that doesn’t like texting and loves losing numbers.
4. I like colorful things.
5. Purple and Yellow are my favorite colors.
6. I will look the same with or without makeup. but makeup enhances my eyes more ;]
7. I like meeting new people and seeing old faces.
8. I miss childhood.
9. I have a fetish for strawberries and domo.
10. I would like to travel the world before i get old and can’t barely walk anywhere… lol
11. My hair is growing out and i hope i don’t end up cutting it everytime. =/
12. I want to move out of my house and live independently but i know there would be drama if i tell my parents that.. =/
13. I would like to sleep early and wake up early too. I can’t do that.
14. I would love to have a domo blanket. i can’t find you yet! :(
15. Lastly, i think everyone knows this: I am madly, inevitably, passionately, deeply, truly, crazily head over heels in love with Tam Huynh. :)

&&; I’m hoping to finish THIS thirty day challenge. :D
if not…. No internet for a week for me. =/

to do my thirty day challenge! lol.

I just don’t have the time to do those things since i have so much homework! D: well after awhile i’ll start on my 2nd 30 day challenge and yes..i WILL finish it soon. hehe.

:D

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

I have like two. Nanly & Charmaine. They are the most amazing, kind, warm-hearted, person ever. They were there for me when all i can do is sob at the computer about random stuff. I love them too death. I wish i could meet them one day…but i got a feeling i won’t ever have the chance to.

Nanly lives in Cali and Char lives in Canada.

It’s been awhile since i’ve talked to them because of how busy i am with everything. But i’m sureee i’ll have a chance soon.

I didn’t explain much in this blog because i don’t have any words left to say. I just miss them. Self explanatory. :]

Hmm, we dated on November 25, 2007 - February 12, 2008 - and that was just the official one actually. We been on and off a lot within 2008 & 2009.

When i think about you, i don’t feel anything but sadness. You were such a part of my life, but yet you were too clingy to me. I guess i did ‘love’ you, just weren’t ‘in love’ with you like you wanted me too. I’m sorry i took you for granted. I guess all the ‘on and offs’ is because i wanted to give ‘us’ a try because i know you are an incredible, romantic, kind-hearted, funny, and loyal boyfriend. We never argue, (until we broke up of course) but i mean..you were a great guy…I just wasn’t a great girlfriend because maybe at that time - either i wasn’t ready or i wasn’t in love with you. And i know i sound harsh but its all experience until you find ‘the one.’ And i have found mine already and i hope you find yours one day too.

Although we don’t talk anymore because i promised not to interfere with your life anymore because you say you “fall in love with me everytime i come in your life” and i really don’t know how thats possible, but i hope that ‘love spell’ disappears one day and we’ll be back to being good friends like we were before. Hurting you is the last thing i want unless i’m trying to teach you a lesson about life. But i’m positive that you can make it. Stay strong.

I wonder what life would’ve been like if i actually know who you are. You can probably be one of my closest friends ever, someone who i can lean on, or maybe someone who can give great advice to a troublesome girl like me. ;]

However, we probably met like millions of times. Walking to the mall, gas stations, mutual friends, college, high school, relatives’ friends, etc. and we never had the chance to stop and talk. Maybe because it is awkward to come up to someone who you don’t really know and afraid that they might be a secret rapist or something. lmao, kidding. But whatever it is…we probably met so many times in life that we don’t ever even notice.

How bout the next time you see me putting gas in my car, walking around in the mall, or studying at a library at college…come up to me and just introduce yourself. ;] It won’t hurt just to be out there. Lol but what are the chances that i do that? Well, depending on my mood i usually go for it….and that is why i’m sorta weird. ;]

Hmm i’m not sure if i’m supposed to write about my dreams as in when i sleep or my dreams i want to accomplished in life, but i’ll do the one that i want to accomplish in my life ;]

I want to complete all my four years of college with honors, pass the MCAT test to med school, find a part-time job in my profession, and lastly complete another four years to get my Doc. degree. I know, this sounds so long and hard…but i want to try my best of my ability and accomplish my life goal. Hmm this might take 10 years to accomplish. T_T but i’m positive that i can make it :D I been having this dream since i was 6 years old. I just later found out years later that it takes that long to become what i wanted to be.

-__- typical asian. lol

I don’t think i can cry anymore. All the tears i’ve shed for you seems worthless. I love you so much but you don’t even trust me. If you do then why do you react so rashly? I know i promised, but i didn’t plan this. The only reason why i was going to see that person is to explain to him that i can’t ever see him again. I want to have a proper goodbye. I felt so guilty lately, but that wasn’t it.

You broke up with me. My heart felt like it got ripped out and ripped apart in pieces. That isn’t it, and when i tried to hug you…you wanted to back away. You didn’t want me anymore. Your response to “taking it back” wasn’t good enough. You didn’t even hug me back when you said it. Am i thrown away now? You’re just going to throw away six months of relationship because of an argument about my goodbyes with that person? I don’t get it.

You say i “love” that person. and yes i do, but in a family/close friend kind of way. There are many different loves out there, and aren’t you the one that told me that? I don’t really understand you sometimes. Babe, i tell you everyday that i’m so in love with you and that i’m so blessed to have you in my life. Won’t you believe me? You accused me of cheating when i didn’t. If i wanted to cheat on you, i wouldn’t tell you what i’ll be doing while you’re at work. I respect you, that is why i tell you everything. Do you even respect my last request? I know i promised, but listen…i didn’t plan this. I want to tell that person goodbye formally. I will always be forever yours but what you said today in the car about other girls you could’ve talked to. That just went overboard and if that is what you wish..i can’t stop you.

I just can’t stop crying from that sentence you’ve said to me. “My friends tell me why i go out with the same girl. I told them because shes good to me. But are you really good to me? You’re going to see your ex. A girl talked to me at work yesterday, but i ignored her. What if a guy started talking to you? I bet you would’ve talked to him back.”

Do you really think i’m that type of girl? and for your FYI, i don’t consider ‘that person’ my ex because we share a family/close friend type of relationship. I wasn’t crying because you broke up with me. I cried because thats what type of person you saw me as. And since you’ve said it…that meant you probably meant that since the beginning. six months ago…

Annie Tran. Why are we so far apart in age? Basically 15 years. You’re so late, but i’m glad you’re here with me. You make my day a little better but sometimes you just annoy me so much.

Sometimes i wish you were a little older so that i can talk to you and maybe cry on your shoulder when i have rough times. but since you can’t, i want to protect you from the outside world. You’re only two and i love you so much.

Even though i yell and seem like i don’t love you that much from time to time, just know that i yell because i care. I don’t want to spoil you too much where you’ll turn into a brat later on in life. I want you to be discipline. I know you’ll make a great person one day, but for now…you need to have self control and stop eating so much candy!

Mom, you have always been there for me ever since Dad left. You work 2 jobs back then to keep me warm and full. You are so faithful and such a good person. I’m sorry if i ever taken you for granted. When Dad left you tried your best to make me happy and carefree, and you did! But i didn’t know you were suffering so much deep down from a broken heart and you hid this all in for years. :( I wish i could’ve been there for you when you needed me, but i was too young to understand what sadness was.

You never let me sad and i didn’t know what i meant. The only saddness i’ve ever felt is when i scrape my knees are injured myself. You’re such a wonderful Mother. But there are times as i was growing up you don’t give me much freedom. I hated being trapped at home sometimes, but i know you wanted to protect me. I know you care.

Thanks for everything you did to me, i am grateful. I am going to dedicate my life to making your life easier when i graduate from my 4 years college, med school, additional 4 more years for my Doc. degree. I know it will take awhile but please be patient and wait. I will show you i can achieve big goals. :) Believe in me, because i never doubted you for a second.

I love you mommy. <3

What can i really say about you? I’m speechless. You’re more than a “crush” to me, but i guess you’re under this category. Hmm lets story tell shall we? reminisce…

It was on a sunday of when “New Moon” came out and also the day after Elijah’s Main Event party. I was going through so much. I was on the verge of losing one of my close friend because she was moving to florida and I’m pretty sure i couldn’t handle the stephen’s parent situation anymore. I was on the verge of breaking down… but i went to the movies anyways because i wanted to see ‘new moon’. My two cousins, Lan, and Kenny was there. I was thirsty so kenny bought me pepsi :D and then thats when i saw you. I asked you to throw away my cup. It was really awkward trying to come up with a conversation but i did it :D

Weeks later after my car accident…hannah gave me your number and the pranking began! (text pranking lol) and idk..afterwards after the games..we stir up some conversation and you decided to help me with my transportation problem. It was really sweet. You picked me up from school and also picked me up from work. Then afterwards you asked me if i wanted to hang out on the following friday and help you pick up presents for your friends. I glady agreed. :D

Walk around for like 2 hours and than we went out to eat at Denny’s. It was fun. I think i started falling hard for you at denny’s. There was that mutual attraction there beforehand but i wasn’t sure if that was where i was headed at. Later we went to see the movie “Avatar” when it first came out. To my surprised we held hands. :DD and when the movie was over…we went out to the car..and it was COLD and idk how but we ended up hugging. “I trust you.” came out of my mouth. I had no idea what that meant…but i did. When you drove me home..you asked me out. ;]

After all the months we been together, i can never forget what the first day was like. I love you so much. Although we have bumpy roads along the way, we always fix our problems. There are times where i just want to give up and let go, but every time i try; i just can’t. I’m so madly in love with you and i’m so blessed to have you in my life. You’re mean everything to me and i don’t ever want to have the thought of you gone. i love you tam van huynh.

Karen Rodriguez. Although we drifted over our last year of high school and started different social circles because we didn’t have classes together and we didn’t have time for one another after school because she always worked. I know that deep down i still keep her close to my heart. No matter what she will always be the one bestfriend that is irreplaceable. I’ve called many people my ‘bestfriend’ before…but none of them lasted as long as karen. We have a special bond that no one will understand. We love to hang out, attend church, and talk. We like to make fun of each other and give each other advices when we needed. She is always the first person i turn to when i have a problem. But things have changed and everything isn’t the same anymore. She is still my bestie..but time isn’t on our side anymore.

Though our separation i’ve learned to spread my wings and trusted many others whose potential can be others bestfriend, but i’m blessed that i get a chance to be ‘theirs’ for the time being. Jackie Hernandez, Stephen Phan, & Devon Toedter. All of them show great potential of what a best friend can be. I love each and everyone one of you. Heck, Jackie - you’re one of my closest friends and i can’t ever forget you. You bring sunshine to my life and i love how addicted i was to seeing you, because you make me happy every single time. No one can ever do that but you. Stephen, you’re one best-guy-friend i’ve ever had. You were there for me numerous times when i was emotionally unstabled. Always there to listen. I cherish you for that and it was hard letting you go…but i guess i can’t be selfish anymore and let you be. You can make some other person happy as their bestfriend, but you’ll always be my brother. I love you kid. Devon, you talk wayy too much lol. I love how positive you’re always are. Your musical talents make me want to pick back up my violin and start playing again…(just wish i had the time too) you make me happy when i need it. You give me boost.

All of you guys are amazing and i love you all individually equally. There are other people that made me to where i am today and i’m so grateful for you guys to be there. Karen have always been my bestie, and while she was gone thanks for filling in the gaps for me guys. I wish we can all stay in touch, but nothing of our relationships are the same anymore. I wish you guys true happiness. <3

30 Day Challenge

On this day you write a letter to:
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror