“Baby Love” by Nicole Sherzinger Feat. Will.I.Am. <3 I fell in love with this song the first time i heard it because it reminded me how Tam and I was. I thought it was perfect, next to our song, “Two is better than one” by Boys like Girls. I can’t stop listening to it, its all i ever want to hear. It reminds me of how my relationship with tam should be.
Lately, our arguments and disagreements just got the better of us. I can’t stop thinking about how our relationship is falling apart. It is tearing me apart. I can’t compromise anymore. I can’t try anymore…it seems like it never gets better. Its like my mood, it will be okay but than later it will change again and it hurts so much. I can’t imagine how my life will be without him, but i guess i can’t depend on him anymore. I shouldn’t. Our ways are way too complex. We’re slowly not going the same direction anymore.
What should i do. I can’t believe i’m saying this but…i’m actually “thinking” about breaking up. Yes, i’m thinking about it. I think it would be for the best. The arguments would be over, and maybe we’ll be better friends than lovers? Is that it? Its not that i stopped trying or that i’m giving up on this relationship..but it’s because nothing is the same anymore…i’m putting pieces together that i can still see the cracks appearing. Nothing is the same.